Self reflection

 2 days ago, much to my annoyance, I had a nightmare. Yes I felt bad after having that dream. It was completely out of my control. I think dreaming of someone is just the effect of our tired activities all day. But I didn't find any other answer. All I had in my head was him, and I didn't even know who he was.

I was really thinking at the office, what does all this mean, even I always mistyped on my laptop keyboard, so my focus on work was a bit disturbed. The whispers in my head started to become, like "call him now". I distracted myself. Every hour I passed was just going through the motions of work and the few chances I took in my free time I would read the dictionary. Even while I was brewing coffee I imagined something that was in my dream but I couldn't remember it at all. The whispering started to become arbitrary this time, "You lose it too quickly because you ignore it too often". I don't care about that whisper, I trust myself. Our brains sometimes have errors, everyone might experience it. Yes as a result we get senile faster. So I didn't bother, and continued with my task.

For that I played music as an alternative to relax my mind enough. Time went on as usual, I only worked 6 hours that day. Then I went home and had lunch, continued reading Hajj murad in my room, and then I fell asleep.

I woke up at maghrib, my room was dark. I woke up in the evening, my room was dark. I saw the light from the bedroom window was still a little saffron yellow, yes it was dusk starting to sink. The wind outside was very calm, my eyes had not opened completely, I got out of bed and took my towel. While brushing my teeth I looked at myself in the mirror and for a moment stopped brushing, I remembered something. I've experienced this before, I felt something repeating under my subconscious, yes I found the answer, I was missing someone.